If you’ve been through a breakup, then this review is meant for you.
I recently downloaded Tik Tok and have been obsessed with the app for about two months now. What I love about the app besides the funny content is that you get to listen to new music.
Recently, every Tik Tok user has been making videos to the song Falling by Trevor Daniel.
Basically, they would use the infamous lyrics “my last made me feel like I would never try again” from the song and pair it with a sad video, which happens to be very effective.
There were some videos that touched me emotionally. Here is a compilation of videos using the song:
Anyways, I decided to download the full song and ever since I listened to the entire track, it has been on repeat. What’s interesting is that the song came out in 2018 but didn’t get popular until it was used in Tik Tok.
The song is a melody with soft drums playing in the background. It's a sick beat, which is why I think it's so popular.
After listening to the song a couple of hundred times, I have grown a personal connection with the heartbreak tune because I relate to the lyrics.
For example, the lyrics that stick with the most are:
My last made me feel like I would never try again But when I saw you, I felt something I never felt Come closer, I'll give you all my love If you treat me right, baby, I'll give you everything
I was in a serious relationship for 7 months in 2018. He was my first boyfriend, first love, my first everything. I was also his first love and even though we didn't last that long, the breakup still stings because our relationship was amazing; well, I guess for me it was.
He ended up breaking it off because he was a year ahead of me and didn’t know what he wanted to do in life. He told me he didn’t love himself and that he just wasn’t happy anymore.
This obviously doesn’t sound like a terrible heartbreaking story. Trust me, I’ve heard and witnessed worse breakups.
But this breakup was intense for me because I thought he was the one. If you know me personally, you would know that I don’t do relationships. I have seen too many breakups to get into a relationship and honestly, I just didn’t want to waste my time. I don’t want a boyfriend just for the fun of it. I rather get into a relationship if I knew that I could see myself with this person for the rest of my life.
Don’t get me wrong, I have gone on multiple dates and grew close with people, but when they ask to be official…. Well, you would know my answer.
Anyways, this guy was different. I told him from the start that I didn’t want to be serious, but he just pulled me in. He was the first to say “I love you.” He was the first to say “I want to marry you.” He was the first to say “forever.”
He made me believe that we would last. He was my everything. He was perfect.
Unfortunately, I didn’t sit well with the breakup. I felt worthless and didn’t feel good enough. It was my fault that he ended the relationship because I couldn’t make him happy to stay committed.
What gets me the most is that we both went from talking every day and knowing everything about each other, to now being total strangers.
A month after the breakup, I almost dropped out of school. I cried in the middle of class, went to my dorm and packed my belongings. I called my mom letting her know that I was coming home. Thankfully, my friends talked some sense into me. If it weren't for them, then I would be in New Jersey right this second.
Eventually, he and I stopped all communications earlier this year in May during his graduation. I found out that he got a job in California and well, that was it.
I’m pretty sure I’m over the relationship, but by default, I still have some feelings for him because he was my first love. I’m not entirely sure what those feelings are, but they still exist.
Ever since we broke up, I told myself I would never get into a relationship ever again. Hence, the lyrics "My last made me feel like I would never try again."
I just don’t know if I could ever open myself up again. I’m scared and I don’t want to get rejected again.
I'll never give my all again 'Cause I'm sick of falling down When I open up and give my trust They find a way to break it down Tear me up inside, and you break me down
These lyrics really hit home because that was how I felt for the entire spring semester of 2019.
I get angry when I rethink this because I just feel dumb and clueless. I’ve posted photos of us on social media and now, they are all gone. It sucks thinking that all these memories with him are now meant to be erased. I hate it more that everyone around me, including my family, knows that I had experienced a breakup.
Even today, I would ask God why I was paired with him if we weren’t going to last. He knew that I didn’t want to experience what all my friends experienced. So, why did He make me go through that? Why did I have to cry every night? Why did my junior year consist of tears and depressed thoughts?
It’s been a full year since the breakup. I have gotten better at understanding this experience. I realized that I needed to go back to loving myself again and being happy.
I’m happy to say that I have gone back to that girl who is happy being single. I don’t even think about “being single.” I’m just back to me.
In terms of future relationships, I’m still too scared to open up, but that hasn’t stopped me from meeting new people. My friends and I have been to the bars a lot this semester and I’ve met many great guys. It’s been fun so far and I plan to continue having fun and enjoying my last year in college before graduate school
Anyways, this was my backstory on why I think this song is amazing. It’s relatable and emotional.
If you’ve felt worthless or depressed after a breakup, this song is great to listen to while you let it all out. It’s important to not hold it in. The more you are transparent with your feelings, the better you will be in moving on.
I’ve learned that it takes time and this song will help you get through that tough time.
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